Where the Wildflowers don't bloom P4

 Part 4

February 2nd, 2023

The more I thing about it the more it became a burden. I don't want to be her Friend. I know I begged Jerin to introduce me to Sophy as a friend, but I never intended to remain just friends. I could never see her as just a friend. I couldn't bear the thought of she introducing me to everyone as her friend. If she could give me her love, I wouldn't mind where my ground is, I wish to be her lover in a far away hell's land instead of just her friend while being near her. Each and every time I look at her I am this close to lose myself completely. It's even a miracle that I am sane while walking with her.

"Why are you quite? I thought you talk a lot" She said while we were passing some of the stalls that are displaying a lot of random stuffs.

I wonder where my voice has gone, It was here a moment ago before I saw her. It had been with me this whole time. I had been practicing what to say and what to ask her, but now I'm left singing a voiceless melody.

"I am the quite guy, maybe you heard wrong" I tried to hide my blush.

"Cool, you called me here remember! I feel like I am talking to a wall" she said, "You didn't even react for a while".

Yes! Yes, I forgot she had been talking the whole time as we crossed from one side of the auditorium to the other. I fell completely for her. I couldn't shake the feeling of being around her. It's just, that every time I was near her it is like some of my cells were electrocuted. I won't blame myself, It's her fault for altering my entire brain chemistry. If only I hadn't seen her in that auditorium, if only I hadn't seen her tying her ponytail, if only I hadn't seen her smiling, I might still be sane right now. I often wonder what I would have been like this past year if I had never met her in the first place and every time I could only come with only one answer, that is I would be Insane either way. She made the Devil fall once again, but this time it was for love. I am deeply and dangerously in love with her.

"I ran out of topics to speak with you" I chuckled, "You didn't even start anything" she smiled back.

We dropped near our department. She said she is going to see Jerin and waved a goodbye. My heart sunk. I am a stupid to took her here out of all the places.

"You came?" Benny startled me from behind, "Dude! What had we talked about not scaring someone from behind?" I replied

"You scared?"

"No, I- No, What are you doing here?" I asked him, stupid but I know no good question to ask him.

"Seriously?-" he sighed, "Alright okay, see you later" I turned away from him, that's when I got an Idea.

"Ben! You guys are responsible for our department at the fair right, maybe do you need any hand? I saw you guys may need a hand" I told

"That's cool actually yeah we need-" I stopped him when I saw Sophy got out from our department

"What happened Sophy?  Is she not there?" I asked her

"It's boring, Jerin's hands are full, I was sitting there alone anyway" she replied and greeted Benny when she saw him standing with me.

"Oh, That's unfortunate" This is the most fortunate thing that happened to me in this week, "Actually I was planned on getting some Desserts, What do you say; Do you want to come?" I asked Sophy.

"But Dude-" I cut Benny in the middle, "Actually Benny was asking me to buy some cakes for him so I am headed there; It would be great if you come with me" I could see the face Benny makes behind my face clearly. 

"Okay, I have nothing to do anyway" Sophy replied to me.

Before I even realize it was past noon. I want this day to stay longer. A walk with her is something worth trading my soul for. I'm not sure if I'll ever have a chance like this again in the future but the finals are around the corner and I definitely don't want to wrap her head with something else other than her studies. Maybe I should wait a little more. It's all an excuse at the end of the day, maybe I am afraid of what comes next, maybe I felt content admiring her from a distance.